
The only place where you can dream
Living here is not what it seems
--Iron Maiden, Strange World I just want to walk right out of this world 'cause everybody has a poison heart. --The Ramones

What if I'm just the butt of a cosmic joke?
What if God is the cruelest bully of all,
Having a laugh as my dreams go up in smoke,
Loving to see me feeling two foot small?
Which is worse when everything is said and done;
A spiteful creator or oblivion?
A universe that's mean and arbitrary
Constructed by a deity uncaring.
notes
Here's the prompt for today's poem. I loosely interpreted the instructions.
https://experiencewriting.com/2023/10/13/oct-13-prompts-stirring-the-ashes/
The form is a Rispetto.
http://www.shadowpoetry.com/resources/wip/rispetto.html
The rhyme scheme for a Rispetto is abab ccdd. It's supposed to be written in iambic tetrameter, but I have no idea how well I did with that. Most lines in the examples I saw were eleven syllables, so I think of it as Elevensies, and that gets the job done.
Now for a little ornery philosophy. Or Cthulhu Mythos geekery. Or Lovecraftian fangirling. Whatever.
Azathoth really isn't a good example of a demiurge. He's primordial chaos. Nyarlathotep is closer to a demiurge, but this poem isn't about him because he's not, in fact, a cosmic bully. He only messes with people who are asking for it, like megalomaniac wizards or power-hungry politicians.
I wrote a poem about Nyarlathotep that I'm pretty proud of. I really dig the image I included with it too.
https://poetryofthenetherworld.blogspot.com/2021/03/sympathy-for-nyarlathotep.html
I still have more to do today, so I think I'll leave it at that. If you'd like to go further down the Demiurge's rabbit hole, here's your entrance.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Demiurge
~Ornery Owl Has Philosophized, Geeked Out, and Fangirled~
I miss my rituals
though I am unsure
they amounted to anything.
I miss having something to believe in
but I can't accept
rigid dogma
notes
Today's Haiga-esque creation was inspired by the following prompt.
https://experiencewriting.com/2023/10/02/oct-2-prompts-what-are-your-creative-rituals/
I'm not following these prompts to the letter. You can if you wish, but I'm not up to it.
Text art and effects were added to the base image using Pixlr. You are welcome to share my Haiga thing, but please credit Cara Hartley/Ornery Owl if you do. A link back to this blog would also be nice.
Most of the time I let my poetry speak for itself, but sometimes I've got to pop off. This is one of those times.
You're welcome to believe, not believe, or not be sure of what you believe. I have no interest in making others be or think like me. We have all experienced different things both in this life and potentially whatever lives we had before. You are not me and I am not you.
I wouldn't wish some of the things I've gone through on my worst enemy. I understand that other people's experiences may not have been as contentious so they may not get where I'm coming from. I don't ask you to agree with me, I ask you to try and understand rather than attacking or arguing.
I'm not interested in debating you. If your beliefs serve you well, good on you. Don't try to convince me that I must believe as you do. I don't take well to proselytizing. Conversely, I'm also not keen for acerbic atheism. By this I mean I don't much care for those who mock anyone with spiritual beliefs.
I'm a devout agnostic. I've seen some shit, and most of the time I think there is something of ourselves that continues after the death of the body. I have no irrefutable proof of this, but the idea of absolute nothingness and the idea of a punitive paternal figure who sends anyone who doesn't worship him properly to eternal hell are both incredibly depressing. Since moderate depression is my baseline state, I find it's better if I have something to sort of believe in, and it's best if that thing isn't a sadistic parental figure.
I was a devout Catholic until I turned 18. After that, I fell into New Age philosophy for about 25 years. I found no peace there because I discovered that New Ageism holds to the same old my way or the highway philosophy as other major religions, it just puts an esoteric spin on the dogma.
During my New Age phase, I spent thousands of dollars to end up feeling worse about myself. The movement is rife with toxic positivity and victim blaming. New Ageism is poison for anyone with a history of trauma as well as for those living with chronic health issues.
New Age thinking postulates that people bring all their problems on themselves by sending out the wrong energy or not believing in themselves enough. This is just prosperity gospel repackaged. Prosperity gospel preaches that bad things happen to people who don't pray the right way or tithe enough of their earnings to their local megachurch, Joel Osteen, or whoever the latest shiny veneered grinning face of prosperity gospel may be.
I recommend following @JoelDongsteen on Twitter--excuse me, X. At least you'll get a good laugh during this lifetime, and the joviality you feel may even follow you into the afterlife.
~Ornery Owl Has Spoken~
ashes to ashes
does something precious remain
the day the end comes?
~ornery owl has spoken~
notes and prompts used
"Well, that's a bit fucking FESTIVE after that gloomy philosophical shite, Ornery."
Yeah, I know. It's how I roll. I like to mix things up a bit.
Would you believe that I am trying to be more like Pooh?
That willy-nilly silly old bear is my real hero.
Because he’s good-natured even when he’s bothered.
Because he believes that things can get better even when they’re bad.
I love you, Pooh.
~cie~