November PAD Chapbook Challenge 2019: Day 1: Once Upon a Time

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Once upon a time

I dreamed

once upon a time

he was

but now there's nothing left

except the misery

as summer disappears

and the barkers burst the colorful balloons

and take down the faire

players only love you

when you bring them money

gas, grass, or ass

no-one rides for free

little boys grow up

become corrupt

use and throw away

stupid girls

once upon a time

I believed in something

once upon a time

I thought someone waited for me

now I know the truth

the only one waiting 'round the corner

to put his arms around me

is death

that no matter where I am

I'm just two steps ahead of that man

some days I'm philosophical

some days I'm scared out of my fucking mind

and some days I'd welcome the bastard

with open arms

once upon a time

you were mine

you loved this wretched, broken thing

but like a leaf on the breeze you blew away

some things are too corrupted to love 

I thought I saw you coming back to me

but then I woke from my dream

the fairytale disappeared

in a puff of smoke

like Little Jackie Paper

you snuffed out your dreams of Puff

dragons aren't real

magic only exists in fairy tales

and love is nothing but a lie

once upon a time

I believed in happy ever after

now I only believe

that dreams vanish

and hearts break

and

everything

dies

~Cie~

Note:

I just found out about the Writers Digest Poem a Day Chapbook Challenge. Now I am playing catch-up. Click here to learn more.

OctPoWriMo 2019: Day 27: How Did I Get Here?

What I Didn't Know

Photoshop manipulation by The Real Cie

Was it fate for you to be erased?

Was it your destiny to remember nothing of your life?

Was it a fault in your chromosomes?

Was it a choice you made before birth?

You were a shining singularity

You were a rebel who rose up from nothing

But nobody here gets out alive

And nobody wins against 

A process which literally

Destroys the brain

Fuck dementia

I say it again

Because I'm powerless to do anything else

~Cie~

Notes:

I just wasn't feeling that otto-whatsit suggested form. So, have some pissed-off free verse. It's what I do best.

Fetch: I Just Wanted You to Know

A Lost World Version 4

Photoshop Art by The Real Cie

I just wanted you to know

You seemed eternal, you know

And part of my mind which doesn't work quite right believes

That this is still what's going on

And you aren't dead and gone

Taken from the world 

By a disease that destroyed your mind

I'm sorry I got angry with you

For something which was in no way your fault

I believed in you

I wanted to meet you

I wanted to be your friend

I knew no-one like you could ever love me

I know for a fact that no-one can

But I hoped that maybe you would like me just a little

I still love you 

But I fuck everything up

I wish that we could reconnect

I wish that we could try again

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I'm so hungry for something I haven't a recipe for

I want to believe in magic

I want to believe in dreams

I want gentle ghosts to haunt my graveyard

And my house and my carousel

I want you to come visit me across time

I would give you a place to hide

In my heart or my pocket

I keep your picture in my broken locket

Beautiful little fractured spirit

You are so much more than you know

I wish that I could hold you to my breast

And soothe the sorrow from your soul

The feeling does go both ways, you know

I still love you

I would try again a million times

Sweet thief of hearts

Come steal my heart

Again

And again

And again

For Gerry from Pepper

Notes:

This poem was created for Team Netherworld's long-running WIP, Fetch. 

The backstory for Fetch (and the stanza just below the carousel image) can be found here.

Troiku Challenge 2019: Day 20: The Snow of Yesterday

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the snow of yesterday

that fell like cherry blossoms

is water once again

the snow of yesterday

embraced me in cold cocoon

you were beside me

that fell like cherry blossoms

the snowflakes like frozen gems

my heart was open

is water once again

memories flow from my eyes

as I think of you

~Gozan & Cie~

with the moon

night too disappears

into the ocean

with the moon

memories return to me

I try to catch them

night too disappears

burned away by light and heat

everything in flames

into the ocean

I sometimes wish I could stroll

and be washed away

~Jane & Cie~

Notes:

The Jisei is a Haiku written by a poet shortly before their passing from the world. The "sleigh" of the first Troiku is the Jisei of the poet Gozan, written shortly prior to his death in 1781 at the age of 71. The "sleigh" of the second Troiku was written by Jane Reichhold (1937 - 2016) shortly prior to her passing.

Haikai Challenge #86: Blue Flower Moon Blues

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Don't know the science

Of why the blue moon occurs

I only know that

The moon doesn't bring flowers

And its light makes me miss you

~Cie~

Prompt Used:

Haikai Poetry Matters