Suicide ideation by ACKZ Twisted -Art
From the Land of Lost Hope
Financial misery, no joke
Not much reason for hope
Dreams died a long time ago
I'd love to just let go
No such thing as true love
Not too much belief in anything but clouds up above
This old bipolar bitch doesn't have the means to be "duh, winning."
Plus I'm too old to find much fun in sinning
For too long I've been on the edge of losing it all
One day I'll find a cliff and from its edge take a fall
There's only one thing that keeps me keeping on
Once he can make it on his own, hell with everything, I'm gone
One of these days I'll learn to fly
One of these days I'll touch the sky
If I could I'd still be living a lie
Believing that everything would be all right by and by
But I can no longer believe the hype
That I'm just waiting for the fruit to turn ripe
With every year, it gets a little bit worse
Don't tell me my life's not a curse
If this little verse has been too honest in tone
It's simply the voice of pain suffered alone
And if you don't like the things I have to say
There's no need to be rude, just be on your way.
~Tempest~
Reporting honestly from Hell
I actually do have a son. He has unipolar depression, while I have type II bipolar disorder. Thus, he has the gene for bipolar disorder, and I pray it's never triggered.
He has made the choice that he will never have biological children because of the mental illness in our family.
My son is an adult, but he is trying to get through med school and still needs my support. If my lot in life hasn't improved by the time he's graduated and working, I will off myself, and I will not apologize for saying that.
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