Once upon a December yesterday
We shattered each other's hearts saying unsuitable things
I press my eyelids closed and try to remember
Standing by your side as the cardboard sea rose and fell
Butterflies danced in my soul, and I wanted to swim away in
your eyes
Violet, sapphire, sage, and all the colors of the broken
rainbow
You seemed to drink me in as I told you stories of my
strange life
The longing look you gave me made me feel bubbly
As if my spirit danced to the music of eternity
Before I met you, I always felt like a secondary character
in my own story
Suppressed memories from my traumatized younger years caused
my soul to splinter
I hurried in a flurry on a hedonistic flight
Chasing each new escapade as if resting was a crime
Endless adventure and celebration were my cross to bear
Playing the part of the lost soul to perfection
My addiction to adrenaline a drain on my psyche
My mind lacked cohesion at the moment in time when you found
me
Dumped near the milestone where I gave up hope for better
I was hanging on by a thread as slippery as spaghetti
Not much wanting to live but not quite ready to die
Like I was lost in a corn maze when the state fair left town
On entering a tunnel, I left hope by the roadside
I threw in the towel and gave up on the world
I swore that never again would I give my heart
But I melted in your hug because it felt like you meant it
I laughed when you ran through the sprinkler like a kid
We teased and joked as we lounged together
Shivering in the cold trailer, trying to stay warm
When you took the garter from my plus size thigh
I couldn’t believe that you could like what you saw
My insecurity was a thorn in your side
I understand now that you really tried
I sometimes still feel you when I’m driving alone
When I need someone to love
You’re the only one I think of
From now until eternity
I hope that you are thriving on the other side
