Senryu: All of Me

I was unable to find the creator of this image. If anyone knows, I am more than happy to credit them.

I am very tired

 Of things being hard, you know

 She has had enough

~Cie~

The prompt today asked us to play with voice. So I wrote one line in first person, one in second person (sort of), and one in third person. 

I like short poems because they help me avoid creating verbal vomit, which is something I'm all too good at.

Pollyanna Positivity

When I'm working long hours

For almost no money

And am in danger of losing everything

And it's come to the point

Where I have to think along the lines

of this:

When all but one of my three cats are dead

I can put some things in storage

And throw out or give away the rest

And then I can live in one of those places

That you can rent by the week or the month

Because I have nowhere I can go

You see, I can't stand to live with my mother

And living with my son

Would put a strain on our relationship

Because he likes to live alone

And I don't want to be a burden

I don't have the money

To make my nice used car

Which I'm still paying off

Look pretty again

After the hailstorm which damaged it

My son is helping me pay for it

I have skills

Which I can only use

In circumstances where I can pace myself

Because of my declining

Endocrine health

I nearly passed out

The last time I tried

To work in a nursing home

If I ever have to go into a nursing home

I will kill myself

That is not hyperbole

I cannot and will not

Live in one of those places

For me, that would be a death sentence

The end of the line

Now, you can tell me to keep fighting

But if all you have to offer

Is Pollyanna Positivity

Where you're going to tell me to be happy

Or trust your god

Whom I don't believe in, by the way

(I'm not an atheist, I just don't believe in THAT god)

Then I'm going to tell you

To please just keep walking

And don't start talking

Because it will only

Make things worse

Between my declining health

And my declining money

And being on the verge

Of losing everything

Pollyanna Positivity

Will only bring out the worst in me

You wouldn't like me when I see red

~Cie~

My Wish

My Wish

Things are going well for me

I'm happy in my career

I've found the love of my life

I like the place where I live

I miss my dad, my uncle, and my little grand-nephew, who was only with us for a short time

The rest of my family is doing okay for the most part

But some of them are struggling

I wish I could do more to help my loved ones whose lives aren't going as well

Who are mired in depression and dissatisfaction

Who have been faced with overwhelming change

I wish I had the means to take your pain away

I sometimes feel so helpless

But my sympathetic tears

Have no magic powers

I can offer you a shoulder to cry on

I don't have the monetary means to do more

Than buy you a sandwich now and then

I wish I did

I can give you advice, for what it's worth

But I can't take away your depression

I can't heal the illnesses that you can't afford to see the doctor for

These days, a dollar doesn't go very far

We're all struggling

I just wish you didn't have to struggle so hard

I wish it were easier to change jobs

So those of you who have come to hate yours

Could find a different line of work

I wish that education didn't cost so much

So you could train for something new

I wish I could wish on every star

And bring each of you what you needed most

I wish we could all speak to our loved ones in Heaven

And know that they're okay

I wish we could all mend fences

Heal wounds

Have second and third and fourth chances at happiness

Know that we're worthwhile

No matter where we live or what we drive

I wish I could give all of you happiness

For that is the most important thing of all

~Adam~